Saturday, September 15, 2012

The End of the Journal -- Not the End of the Journey


We have come to the end of the journal that I kept beginning with our return to Zimbabwe in 1983.  I suppose there are many reasons that I stopped writing; I could blame lack of motivation, laziness, just being too caught up in the fast-paced details of life.  I suspect that the underlying reason was a certain disillusionment with how events were playing out.  

By this time, I had a well-established construct in my mind of what was supposed to happen.  After all, we had jumped through all the hoops to gain credibility for our African mission.  Upon arrival in 1983, we had no prospects for success based on education, training, finances or contacts.  All we had was $1000 and the assurance of one Zimbabwean 23 year old (Amos Moyo) that we would find personal and governmental acceptance, even in light of our participation in the former Rhodesian security forces.  But, in the short time since arriving in 1983, we had ample ministry success by evangelical standards and had every reason to believe that we would find  American enthusiasm for a properly financed ministry during our visit home.

Well, we were well received and managed to scrape together a manageable level of dependable support during our four months in the States, but I still seemed to lose interest in recording the daily details.  We arrived in Houston on 18 September 1984.  The next two weeks spent with Pegi’s family were agonizing.  Her mother seemed to be sinking into new depths of her hatred of me.  Needless to say, it was uncomfortable.

The only happy times during our two weeks in Houston were related to our “chance” meeting with John Osteen, pastor of Lakewood Church.  He arranged a meeting with Bill Dearman, the head of his missions ministry who suggested they might be interested in supporting us.  [They began financial support 18 months later.]  We also reconnected with our old friends, Ken and Jill Duckman, whom I had known from my early Jesus Freak days in Madison.  Ken was also Jewish and I met him just as he was himself beginning to get interested in Jesus.  They had also joined me in Houston at Berachah, remained friends with us throughout the time that we were disowned by Col. Thieme and his sycophants, and were now regular supporters of our African adventure.

Our ministry account now had $1,200 in it.  Our Louisville “home” church had finally begun to deliver on their original promise of support.  We decided that we would fly to Louisville on October 2nd.  After spending time with supporters in Louisville, we planned to travel to New Hampshire, Toronto, Florida and finally to Atlanta to visit supporters before returning to Africa.

My next journal entry is a diagonal line with the comment, “I decided not to keep a journal while we were in the USA.”  The next entry is 29 January, 1985 with our arrival in Johannesburg, South Africa.  Entries continue until 12 February with a month hiatus until 16 March 1985, the last entry.

Certainly, a lot happened between March, 1985 and May, 1987 when we left Zimbabwe for the last time.  In fact, that two year period was the seeming highpoint of our lives.  It included the vindication of our approach to ministry, the foundation of a school of ministry for pastors together with Tom Deuschle of Rhema, Africa Evangelical Fellowship and several other ministries, as well as the birth of Abigail.
Why no journal?  My last entry related a nightmare that centered on a subconscious sense of failure.  Everything looked great.  Subconsciously, I knew something was seriously wrong.  It turned out that it was more than “something”--there were many things wrong.  Sensing that, I just couldn’t write.  I couldn’t give expression to my thoughts in writing.  In many ways, I didn’t want to start writing and admit that things were not “as advertised”!

Looking back on this a quarter-century later, I see the significance of that crazy dream.  I have appended it here:

16 March 1985
I have missed writing now for a month and there is much to relate, but I was awakened this morning by a terrible dream . . .  I was in New York and picked up by Ken Duckman at the airport.  
He was buying four apples, but only had a grocery store credit card for Houston and no cash on him.  I gave him $20 and said he could repay me with a check.  We then got in each of our cars to drive to my place in New York.

While on the freeway, he passed me and I thought, “He knows New York better and will lead the way.”  Then I fell behind him in the traffic.  I was driving a large old model green Buick just like the rust-bucket my father had been driving when last I saw him in Louisville.  And, like my father’s old car, mine began to overheat and malfunction.  I pulled to the side of the road sobbing that this car couldn’t break down!  It was all I had.  Suddenly, I was in a “flop house” alone, crying in misery for the failure of my life.

--I awoke and told Pegi.  She said it sounded as if I was overcome by the thought that I might be a failure like my father--my deepest fear.

Of course, I wasn’t failing on the surface.  In fact, it seemed as if things were going our way--finally!  I was beginning to sense the disassembly of the world-construct that would take place over the next 15 years.  The new millennium would find me on a very different path for my wandering.  That new path would not be the Christian one that I had followed since 1970.  So, the next chapters will take us through the most dramatic and exciting events of our lives:
  • 1985 - surprising success for our work in Zimbabwe 
  • 1986  - birth of Abigail
  • 1987 - resettlement in the USA 
  • 1989 - success and dissatisfaction in business
  • 1991 - passing of my mother, enrollment in graduate theological studies
  • 1992 - passing of my father 
  • 1994 - begin Ph.D. studies in World Religions
  • 1997 - dissertation, graduation and move to teach in Singapore
  • 1999 - return to USA, move to Chicago to pursue teaching/writing
  • 2000 - publication of Messianic Jewish Congregations, dismissal of Christianity and return to a Jewish lifestyle and spirituality
  • 2007 - Call me Grandpa:  the birth of my grandson, Aiden Levi Wasserman 
  • 2008 - Rage Against Age - rediscovery of my love for classic rock
  • 2009 - back to teaching World Religions
So, as you can see, there is a lot to discuss.  I hope you will keep up with me as I continue to wander down the path.  I have no idea where it will all go, but look forward to the journey.

Next:  A Triumphal Return

Where Is Home Anyway?


Since the Kariba Christian Centre was not working out for us, it really did make sense to consider a trip back home.  We were feeling torn.  We knew we needed to stay away from Wedza,  but had discovered that there just wasn’t sufficient infrastructure to support our ministry in Kariba.  Kariba was just too far removed from the rest of Zimbabwe.  If we wanted to reach the rural areas, we would need easy access to Harare where there was a large community of African Christians who could be drawn into our efforts.  

Our trips to South Africa every few months to renew our visitor’s visa also provided the opportunity to stock up on supplies that were not available in Zimbabwe.  International business sanctions had been lifted with the transition to Zimbabwe from Rhodesia in 1980, but the local economy was almost three decades behind.  [With Marxist rhetoric, it would probably take decades for 1984 Zimbabwe to catch up.  Of course, under Mugabe’s dictatorship, Zimbabwe’s economy was completely destroyed by 2000.  In 1984, one US dollar was worth three Zimbabwe dollars.  Before Zimbabwe abandoned its own currency in 2007, one US dollar bought 100 billion Zimbabwe dollars!]  We could visit the border with Zambia at Kariba for visa extensions, but there was nothing to buy in Zambia.  Their economy was in worse shape than Zimbabwe’s.  Driving from Kariba to Johannesburg, South Africa was a three-day trip.  From Harare, it was only 7 hours across the border to an air-conditioned motel, car spare parts, tuna fish, Nestle’s Crunch and Kentucky Fried Chicken.  Then it was a pleasant 5 hour drive to Johannesburg with more opportunities to fill up with petrol and KFC!

The morning before the last Mahombekombe meeting, my father phoned to say that he had suffered what might have been a small stroke.  He had always been 40-50 pounds overweight for his 6’3 frame, hadn’t paid attention to his health and was at risk for a heart attack.  My mother divorced him when I was six.  My relationship with him had always been bumpy, especially since he “had me” on on weekends and during summer vacations all the way through my school years.  

He had a sales job that kept him traveling between his second apartment in Houston to  Phoenix and Los Angeles most of the time. So, he was rarely around.  When he was in town and  made plans for me to spend the day with him, he was always several hours late.  I remember  spending entire Saturdays waiting for him.  This was long before cell phones and often, after being delayed all afternoon without calling, he would finally call in the evening to say that he wasn’t going to be by to “get me” after all.  I spent three six-week summer vacations with him during my junior high years.  These were business trips for him, but great vacations for me hitting all the western state tourist spots and making two trips to Disneyland in California.  I actually lived in the Beverly Hills Wilshire Sheraton Hotel for six weeks one summer.  My days were spent at the hotel pool while he called on customers.  Evenings we dined at famous restaurants and saw dozens of stage shows by Hollywood entertainers.  That was fun, except that he would drop me at the hotel after the show to go on a date with someone he met that night.  Despite his size, he was a handsome man with blue eyes.  Women were attracted to him.  The first significant evidence of this was his high school librarian when he was 16.  She showed him things in the library that were outside of the standard curriculum, if you catch my meaning.  Aside from his  success attracting women he was capable of making friends with anyone instantly.   Everyone liked him from doormen and waitresses to CEOs.  His problem was not starting a relationship.  It was in sustaining relationships.  Whether with me, his brother, his dates or three ex-wives, there was universal agreement that Marvin Wasserman did not know how to demonstrate his love in an ongoing relationship.

He had come from a poor Russian immigrant family.  His father, a housepainter, died from a heart attack when Dad was only 10.  He lived with his mother and older brother until he joined the Navy at the outbreak of World War II.  He was a “born” salesman, finding success in the jewelry business in the first few years after the war.  As such, he made a lot of money in the 50s and 60s.  Unfortunately, he seemed to think that the best way to show his love was to shower family and friends with gifts.  Hey, I’m not complaining!  I didn’t mind the gifts at all.  It is just that I would rather have his attention.  
Anyway, in the late 70s he suffered a number of financial setbacks.  By the 80s, he was living on social security disability after having declared bankruptcy in the 70s. Interestingly, our relationship improved dramatically once money was no longer his means of showing love.  Nevertheless, our relationship was still a bit bumpy.

We had already decided to make a visit to the States, but this solidified our plans.  I needed to see him before he had the inevitable final heart attack.  He and I had spoken numerous times about God and he had become seemingly more open to considering a relationship with Jesus.  Of course, I was feeling the pressure of the evangelical doctrine that everyone had to accept Jesus as savior, even the children of Israel.  Evangelical Christians take the “great commission” very seriously:

And Jesus came up and spoke to them, saying. “All authority has been given to Me in heaven and on earth.  Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”  [Matt. 28:18-20 NASB]

I felt that I had a responsibility to reach my father with this important message before he died.  And, maybe this recent mini-stroke would have awakened him to his need for Jesus.  

[Once again, as I reflect on this 26 years later, I understand what an unfair pressure this put on our relationship. And, of course, I no longer hold to that Christian faith perspective.  As a Jew, I value the moral and ethical teaching of Jesus.  I often remark the Jesus is my favorite radical reformist rabbi.  Also as a Jew, I value Christianity as the successful embodiment faith in God for the gentiles.  However, I have come to reject the traditions that arose in later generations transforming Jesus the Galilean rabbi and prophet into God.

The Christian dogma that posits their understanding of Jesus as the “only” way to God has recently come under scrutiny by some intellectually honest evangelicals.]  

I created a web page where I can discuss this and other subjects of interest with readers.  Visit www.ConfessionsofAWanderingJew.com to start the conversation.

We booked flights and arranged to have the money transferred from our bank in South Africa to the travel agent in Harare.  In preparation for our arrival, we began writing letters to churches and individuals we hoped to visit in America.

Norman made the long trip from Wedza-Harare-Kariba to plan with us before we left.  The work in Wedza continued to grow under his guidance with continued financial assistance from Dave Hess and Pastor Francis from the church in Domba Tomba outside of Marondera.  Knowing that Wedza was in good hands gave us the confidence that we could go away for a few months without the work fizzling out.

After dropping Norman at the bus for his return to Wedza, we got a call from the Centre’s switchboard saying that Tinos was downstairs with someone he wanted us to meet.  So, we headed downstairs to the lounge.  When we saw Tinos’ friend, we were shocked.  After all, this was deep in a sparsely-populated and little visited part of Zimbabwe.  But, there having tea with Tinos, was an Hasidic Jew with black coat and hat, tzitzit hanging from his waist and side-curls.

He was a 28-year old Australian Jew hitchhiking from South Africa to Somalia where he planned to meet up with his African fiancĂ© who traced her descent from Solomon and the Queen of Sheba.  We had many things to argue about (I mean “discuss”) that afternoon, so I didn’t think that it was my place to tell him that there were no roads for about 700 miles of his hitchhiking trip!  He would discover that soon enough.

Tinos had been witnessing to him, trying to convince him that Jesus was the promised Jewish Messiah.  The Australian, Michael, was surprisingly open to discussion, but Tinos felt that he was out of his element.  That is why he had come to find me!  He was certain, that as a Jew myself, I would be able to make a convincing argument to Michael.

Michael was happy to take me on in the continuing argument (“discussion”) with Tinos.  Michael had been on a spiritual quest himself.  He was a “Wandering Jew” too!  In his wandering, he had even attended a Roman Catholic seminary for a few years.  He had extensive New Testament knowledge, and when it came to theology, he was much better versed in Christian thought than I was.  Of course, I had never been well-schooled in Jewish beliefs either.  So, I was worried that this guy might have me for lunch!  Well, that would be better than the Centre’s mutton!

During this period in my life, I was confident in my commitment to Jesus.  However, I had always been a bit intimidated by observant Jews.  It wasn’t that I thought that my position was wrong.  It was just that I did not have the training in Hebrew and the years of practice in theological debate is the heart of Orthodox Judaism.  

My Jewish background had made me comfortable with theological debate and argument.  Jews are taught to question everything.  This is the primary method of inquiry in the synagogue.  I had discovered that my Jewish tendency to question truth assertions and my inclination to debate or argue made me unwelcome in most Christian theological settings.  For most Christians, everything was settled.  For me, as a Jew, everything was subject to piercing investigation.  As if to illustrate just that point, later that afternoon, one of the visiting missionaries at the Christian Centre took me aside to upbraid me for “arguing” with Michael.  I explained to him that this is the Jewish method of intellectual discourse.  I don’t think he bought it.  I suspect it confirmed his stereotype of all Jews as argumentative troublemakers.

By 1984, this was my third encounter with a Jewish “authority.”  The first had been with my childhood rabbi, Chester Diamond in 1969 when I first became a follower of Jesus.  In that first encounter with a learned Jew, I had held my own, employing Psalm 22 and Isaiah 53 to make my case.  Rabbi Diamond was only the “assistant” rabbi back then at Adath Israel, and I don’t think he was prepared for the emerging Jewish Jesus movement.  [For more information on Jewish faith in Jesus, order my $9.99 eBook, Messianic Jewish Congregations:  Who Sold this Business to the Gentiles?  iPad/Kindle, Nook]  Later, I would encounter him as the senior rabbi at my mother’s funeral and again when writing my doctoral dissertation.  He and I were both better prepared to support our arguments then.  My second Jewish encounter was with the rabbi in Bulayawo during the Rhodesian War.  [“The French Would Sell their Mothers”]  I felt that I had handled myself successfully there as well.

Michael was not about to admit that my arguments were valid.  Frankly, I won a few, but I think he won more!  My basic argument concerned Jesus’ assertion that he was “the way, the truth and the life; no one comes to the Father, but through me” ( John 14:6 NASB).  So, he was:  (1) a deceiver, (2) deceived or (3) or what he said he was--the way, the truth and the life.  

Tinos ran into him again later.  While not admitting that I had won any points, Michael said that he believed he had been led to our meeting by God.  Tinos and I both interpreted that to mean that I might have gotten through to him.  More than likely, he saw God leading him there to help me find my way back to a Jewish path.  Thinking about it now, that was probably the case!

I had one other encounter of note before leaving for the States.  The morning before our flight out of Kariba, I met an African journalist who worked for ZIANA, the Zimbabwe news agency.  He was a born-again Christian who was stationed in Kariba.  However, he had been born and raised in a Jewish village outside Rusape.  There are several tribal groupings of African Jews in Africa.  The largest and best known was indigenous to Ethiopia.  The majority of these Ethiopian African Jews were rescued and settled in Israel (Operation Solomon). After finishing university and sometime after the end of hostilities, he had been presented with the gospel and become a follower of Jesus.  So, here we were, two Messianic Jews at the border of Zambia and Zimbabwe!

And now it was time to go home, but where was home?  Sure, Louisville was my birthplace as Houston was Pegi’s.  But, a few months into our marriage, we had made our home in Africa.  Now we were back and beginning to feel as if we really belonged.  Most of our ministry support was from South African and Zimbabwean Christians, white and black.  As we prepared for our trip to Houston and Louisville to connect with our birth and spiritual families, would we find the same kind of acceptance from our American spiritual family that we had from our African spiritual family?  Could we go home to the States, raise the support we needed and quickly return to our African home?  

The Kariba airport had one runway.  The weekly flight to Harare was in a two-engine propeller-plane reminiscent of something out of a 1950s movie.  Before we could take off, a Land Rover raced down the runway to chase off the elephants and zebra who were grazing on the grass at the sides of the tarmac.

A few days later, we boarded a KLM 747 in Harare. Our flight would stop in Arusha, Tanzania where we could see Mt Kilimanjaro in the distance, Khartoum in the Sudan, Vienna, and  Amsterdam.  After a 10-hour layover in Amsterdam including a boat ride through its canals, we once again boarded a KLM flight for the flight to Houston.

Tuesday, 18 September 1984

--After ten months in Africa, we are back where we started, but 3118 souls for the kingdom richer!

Next:  The End of the Journal -- Not the End of the Journey

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Too Much Mutton!


So here we were on our way again to Kariba.  This time it wasn’t a vacation, but a change of operating theaters.  As we moved into a tiny three-room suite at the Kariba Christian Centre, we were far too busy to think about what all of this meant for us as a couple in the greater scheme of things.  Today, however, as I read through my journal entries a quarter century later, I can see just how far we had wandered from anything we had known before.

Married 8 years, I was 35.  Pegi was 32.  For the last 15 years, my entire focus had been my spiritual growth as a follower of Jesus.  I had dropped out of university at 20 and never found a career path other than the hope of “full-time ministry.”  Yet, the unusual trail that had led a Jewish ex-hippie and his spouse to Africa did not resemble that of other missionaries.  I still had no formal biblical or ministerial training.  Nevertheless, I had pursued my goal with a single-mindedness and energy that makes me short of breath today!

Every day was packed with activity:  hours of intensive personal study, leading others in biblical studies, nighttime evangelistic meetings, one-on-one spiritual counseling and all the details of managing life’s details in a foreign country on little to no money.  A typical week included 2-3 nighttime outdoor evangelistic events to between 50 and 500 people, speaking engagements twice on Sundays as well as mid-week, 5-10 appointments with ministry workers, 4-5 daytime bible studies or schools of ministry, 5-10 personal letters to supporters, . . . We were really energetic!

We were also deeply entrenched in what is best described as charismatic ministry.  The first 10 years of my Christian wanderings had kept me firmly rooted in that part of evangelical life that viewed the expectation of “Spirit-filled” miracle ministry as highly suspect.  But, as Pegi and I had sought to live out our lives with effectiveness, we had found ourselves drawn to the claims of Pentecostal/Charismatic ministers as explained in Listen for the Music and Follow It.  Since arriving in Zimbabwe, our experience seemed to verify that non-charismatic ministries were uniformly unsuccessful.  They neither caught nor held the attention of the African populace whose indigenous religious sensibilities were accustomed to examples of “power.”  

Of course, music has always been at the core of my being.  The lively music that characterized the charismatic movement was quickly incorporated into our ministry.  Africans, too, seemed to have a strong affinity for music and responded readily to our ministry because of it.  African tradition also has an expectation of practical and powerful results from religion.  I never could accept the paradox of the spirit-filled and empowered ministry of Jesus and his disciples compared to the somber intellectualism of modern Christianity.  I had never been interested in the doctrine, dogma, tradition and authority of the historical Christian movement.  My interest was in the fullness of life expressed by Jesus and his Jewish disciples.  What Jesus and his disciples had experienced pulsed with life and truth.  That is what I wanted to experience!  So, I was drawn to charismatic present-day experience that claimed to be parallel to that of the 1st century.

When we ministered with Felix or others who actively sought the “power of the Holy Spirit” we seemed to have immediate results.  When we encountered traditional ministry such as at the Chisipite Baptist Bible Church, the congregations were lifeless and unenthused.  We did note that much of what passed for charismatic ministry was seriously lacking in biblical fidelity.  It seemed to me that charismatics used the Bible as justification for activities that were clearly outside of any sound biblical context.  We sought to unite sound biblical exposition with the experiential power of the Spirit of God.  That desire on our part often resulted in unrealistic hopes.

We had adopted not only charismatic ministry, but also its vocabulary.  As I read through my journal entries, I am embarrassed by my own naivetĂ©.  There are constant references to praying for miracles of healing, “confessing” ministry finances, attacks by Satan, victories over demonic powers and overly-optimistic estimates of how people have “given their lives to Christ.”  Here is an example that makes me dizzy just to read:

Kariba - Saturday, 8 September 1984
This morning we are really encouraged in the Lord and ready for a crusade tonight . . . .
--We arrived at the park in Mahombekombe only to find that the carnival was still there.  It was supposed to have finished on Friday night.  Also, there were traditional dancers and a film at the hall!  We decided to set up anyway!
Jeff and Tinos tuneup

We spoke to the foreman of the carnival and told him it would be okay for him to stay, even though we had permission to use the park.  We would set up next to him and he could turn off his music once we started.  He agreed and was helpful at first.


A rainy night in Mahombekombe
We began to sing with only about 20 children present, but after a few minutes there were at least 1000 people.  By the time we started the film [from a T.L. Osborn evangelistic crusade in the Philippines with tens of thousands in the audience and dozens of testimonies to miraculous healing], there were at least 1500.  

Just as we were about to show the film a town councilman showed up saying that we really didn’t have authority to be there.  We told him that we DID!  He said the foreman of the carnival had complained because we were there.  He had apparently become upset when we took his crowd away from him.


I stood my ground and said that as far as we were concerned, we had permission and we would not move.  The councilman relented offering us the town hall for tomorrow night and the rest of our crusade.  We agreed with that and went on with showing the film.

The devil had tried once again to stop the preaching of the gospel and once again had failed.  We had called his bluff and took authority over the situation.  

At least 300-400 raised their hands to receive Christ.  Allowing for the 200 we counted two weeks before, I would say there were about 200 new commitments.  That puts our total at 2897 [since our return in 1983].  We gave out about 1000 tracts and had the thrill of defeating the devil even though he had us surrounded--Praise the Lord!

Sunday, September 9
Tonight we set up in Mahombekombe in the hall.  It was very hot and about 150 came..  We sang and then I preached on Ephesians 2.  I had asked how many were born-again and it looked like everyone raised their hands.  

Afterwards, I gave an altar-call and one young man came forward.  After he prayed he said he could feel joy flooding his being.  We prayed for 3 sick people, one with TB, another with a deaf ear (who then asked what he must do to be saved), and another (who had been saved the night before) who was suffering from dizziness.  [He must have felt like I feel now recounting all of this!]  

Monday, September 10
. . . This evening in the park at Mahombekombe only 100-150 came.  Tinos preached, but 51 came to the Lord. . . .  We prayed for healing for about 20, several testifying to being healed.  

Tuesday, September 11
. . . At Mahombekombe park . . . About 150 of 500 responded (Total 3118) . . . .
Pegi was asked to pray for a woman with pain in her back.  After praying, the pain moved to her chest.  Pegi cursed Satan and the pain left.  This was important for Pegi since she saw that the Lord could heal through her without me there praying with her.  [Can you believe this stuff?  I shudder to think that this is what we were actually thinking at the time!]

--The amazing thing about this evening was how peaceful and orderly it was.  We didn’t have to rebuke the devil all night.  It was like Satan got tired and left us alone tonight.  [I seemed to have already forgotten about Pegi rebuking Satan as I jotted these things down before going to bed.]

So, at least from our perspective at the time, our ministry was successful and it seemed that we had made the right decision in moving to Kariba.  We had also begun to feel that we no longer needed the experience of Felix or someone else to guide us and pray for healing.  Neither did we seem to need the films any longer as several nights without them at Mahombekombe had shown.  We were gaining confidence in ourselves that the Lord was with us in ministry.

Life at the Kariba Christian Centre was not working out as expected.  Yes, Lester wanted us to be involved as “trustees” in its management as a rest stop for missionaries on furlough from Zambia.  Yes, we could use it as a base of operations to meet other missionaries and ministries with whom we could work.  Yes, we would be actively involved in ministry to exhausted missionaries in need of rest and relaxation.  Yes, we could cook meals and wash dishes -- What?  We were expected to work for free as kitchen help?

Yup, apparently by moving into a tiny un-air-conditioned suite of three rooms, we were expected to cook and clean.  I sure didn’t remember a discussion of this in the “You don’t understand that God has sent you” discussion!  And then there was the matter of the single small fan in our room.  Lester needed to give that to some other missionaries in another room.  We were expected to sweat it out in our room without the A/C that Lester had in his.  And now we wouldn’t even have a fan to keep the thick hot air moving?

And, what had happened to those nice meals that we had in the cafeteria the first two weeks we had visited?  Well, apparently, finances were running low since some of the missionaries refused to contribute to the cost of their room and board.  Even though Pegi and I were paying the advertised rates to stay there, we would pretty much have to live on a diet of mutton that had been donated by a local farmer.  There was no fruit, although the markets were overflowing.  We were short of bread, even brown bread.  We had limited supplies of eggs and milk.  I don’t remember any vegetables.  We had mutton for supper, mutton stew for lunch and although we didn’t have mutton for breakfast, all I remember is the smell of mutton with every meal.

Up until now, everyone we had met in Zimbabwe was incredibly giving and hospitable, recognizing that we were without regular financial support.  White Europeans and black Africans alike always had sought to share their best with us.  But, Lester and Peggy Seiler, who had significant regular support for themselves and the Kariba Centre ministry from America, were not willing to share.  We were paying for our room and board just like the other visitors at the Kariba Christian Centre, but for the privilege of helping out, we would cook, clean and eat rations.  This wasn’t going to work!

Pegi and I decided that this was a perfect time for us to make a trip back to the States.  While there, we could visit friends who were interested in our ministry.  Now that we had ample tangible success to talk about, we should be able to raise enough regular support to get the minimal transportation, equipment and operating funds so that we would no longer be dependent on hospitality.  The hospitality, except for the glut of mutton, had been wonderful.  But now it was time for us to be responsible for our own expenses and free up resources to support indigenous African workers.  With about US$2000/month regular support we could provide for ourselves and support others such as Norman and Tinos.  Maybe we could also help out other new missionaries who were just getting established.  Whatever support we raised, I was confident we wouldn’t have to eat mutton ever again!

Next:  Where Is Home Anyway?